Hey, it has been a while! I was here every single day ever since my last post contemplating the thought of writing, thinking what to write about, how to write it; and after a long session of this mentally exhaustion exercise, I would simply close the browser without writing a word or in best case scenario I would draft whatever I wrote to improve it later! Needless to say that later would mean further editing that requires more edits at a later time and the vicious cycle of procrastination would go on and on! All I’ve got now is tens of drafts –close to a hundred- that never been published before and probably will never be because of my “Lizard Brain”!

Up until today, I used to over think the tiniest detail of everything I am about to do, trying to get it right! No, wait! Trying to get it perfect the first time around; and in the midst of this process, I failed to notice that I am not producing anything! I was daydreaming, literally! I would have this great post idea planned very carefully in my mind, references, videos and illustrations collected, and points to be discussed chosen, structure and opening planned…  everything! But as I said, it’s all in my mind and that’s where it’ll remain after hours and hours of thinking, searching & writing!

I used to worry about my post title, the opening sentence, the grammar, the structure…etc, etc! I was terrified of being a mediocre amongst the great people around me; I didn’t notice that I turned to be nobody! I was very afraid of failing to the point I stopped trying!

It was not until I stumbled upon one of the Leadership Freak blog posts: “10 reasons you’re an overthinker” that I realised how much I’ve been missing!

“Focus on thinking, you’ll get more thinking.
Focus on doing, you’ll get results.“
- Dan Rockwell

Reading his post felt like getting slapped in the face! It was as if the post is directed to me and me only! I was thinking, thinking a lot; and that’s what I got in return, more and more thinking! I am sick of it, sick of having all of those great ideas and not being able to share them with the rest of the world! Tired of not trusting my ability to learn and improve as I go, tired of being haunted by the fear of failing to the point I lost my faith in my capability to stand up afterwards and keep going!

So, from today on… I am doing something about it, and I’ll get results! I’ll stop worrying about how I write & I’ll focus more on what I am going to write about, to be more specific, I’ll focus more on writing it, regardless of the bad grammar, weak structure, poor words selection or the lousy titles I pick! As long as I continue posting on a regular basis, accept my mistakes and learn from them, I believe I’ll get results and I’ll achieve something! I’ll be posting here daily, the topics will vary from personal, professional, and entertaining or simply whatever I’ve learned that day until I overcome my perfectionism!

I know this post could be better and it may need review, it sure does; but I’ve decided to let go and deliver instead! Starting today, I am quieting my lizard brain and I’ll start shipping!

Who is with me? : )

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